In general, I consider myself a modest gamer. I have my favorite game series and treasured classics I still own. However, I don’t blow my money on video games unless it’s one I particularly want. Well, Bloodborne by From Software, Inc. caught my eye. It was horror and RPG almost rolled into one. I should have let the fact that the same studio made Dark Souls warn me. I didn’t listen. I am still trying to beat this game and here are five things I’ve experienced.
1. Game Rage
In all my years of gaming, I’ve never thrown the remote down so many times. My potty mouth got dirtier. The number of times I’ve died is ridiculous. Most of the time it’s during stupid things. One time I was killed by a freaking crow. I got so mad I walked and forgot I left the PS4 on until way later. I can never remember one game inspiring so much anger over game fails.
2. Jump Scares
I thought I was over this phenomenon. I mean, I love survival horror games. I thought I was numb to it. Well, Bloodborne showed me differently. I’ve had a few jump scares. The worse was when a bad guy jumped out of the shadows and impaled me. I dropped the remote. This resulted in a death where I threw the remote again — angry at my own weakness.
On the heels of game rage comes despair. I currently feel like I am never going to make it out of a certain area. Sometimes, I feel like taking the game back. Yet, I soldier on.
4. Stress Relief
Okay, this is almost a paradox. Playing the game causes rage and despair but it’s actually good stress relief, too. The simplicity of taking out bad guys is what does it. You don’t have to solve crazy puzzles or plan out long strategies, you simply survive one area and make it to the next.
The greatest moment in the game was when I beat the first boss… ON THE FIRST TRY. It was amazing. I think I had tears in my eyes. It was a beautiful feeling. I felt embarrassed that such a thing caused me utter joy. I still don’t know how I did it.